Friday, March 31, 2006
*Sigh*
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Friday, March 17, 2006
The shoe-paholic in me strikes again.
My shoe fetish is starting to become unhealthy. Galleria is holding a 3-day sale and I promised myself I wouldn't go around to avoid temptation. Good thing I'm swamped with work because I only had time to sneak out and get lunch before wrestling getting down to business. But, I kind of fell into a trance on the way out of the office and some forceful magnet lured me towards Schu. My eyes zeroed in on a pair of metallic brown flats and then the pink pumps I've been eyeing for months. Then a pair of bronze shoes caught my attention. Thinking that I might find something better at VNC, I hopped on the escalator that would take me to the thrid floor and suddenly, I found myself trying to keep my stride in check - I didn't want to look like some desperate shoe-fanatic in case my legs break out into a run. VNC, as at every sale, slashed 50% off some of their stuff. Rushing back to Schu, I passed Naf Naf's display window and a beautiful, multi-colored pair of pumps caught my eye - and my breath. Fleetingly, a thought crossed my mind: when you start to gasp inwardly at the sight of shoes, you're in trouble. I ended up buying the flats from Schu, but the guilt that ripped through my heart was scary! I literally felt like such a bad person for yet again, purchasing something impulsively.I'm such a shoe-paholic that I window shop even in the office. My favorite shoe fashion icons being Preview's Joanna Francisco and Pauline Juan. It's a good thing Pauline doesn't notice, but I love passing by her cubicle just to catch a glimpse of what fabulous pair of shoes her feet are donning. I love her printed pumps, all from Hotwind, I think. Today, I almost embarrassed myself again when I walked by her station and gasped at her feet. "Beautiful Shoes!" I yelped.
There's something about the way a shoe is designed that is so artistic. The slant of the heel, the curve of the toe, the way your feet instantly look gazillion times better. Accessories for the feet. I adore a good pair of shoes so much that sometimes, I feel like my pupils are starting to shape themselves into a pair of shoes.
And, boy, has my has my writing deteriorated. This definitely isn't the best way to take into account my love of shoes.
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
There are many changes going on in my life right now. Changes that are similar to the ones I went through last year. I think this is a test to see if I learned my lessons. I noticed that I've acquired the nasty habit of dreaming about my problems. Blech. Can't even escape them when asleep.I think it's time for some major soul-searching. Learn how not to take things personally, stand my ground and to start handling disappointments in a better way. I have my own set of beliefs as to how things should be and I don't want to let go of that. But, at the same time, I want to be open to other people's ideas as well.
Or maybe I'm just too idealistic. Set my standards so high even I can't meet them. Where did I get that from anyway?
I'm just learning how complicated life is. It's not as simple as it used to be in college, when you could choc it all up to immaturity. Now, there are so many factors to consider. So many things that get affected with one decision or one action.
I'm feeling a bit lost. But, what's new right? I know I'll find my place in time. I always do. I just have to stick to what I believe in and not let anyone take me away from that.
I realized how unhappy I've been the past few months. I see people I used to hang out with when my life was "normal" pa and I realized how much I miss them.
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